Life for share @ Dreamer

I’m sooooooooooo free now. Yea...soooooooooooooo free! been doing nothing since I wake at 5am until now. So I’ll share something with you here...after this, I will back to my bed, play on my mp3 player, sleep and have a nice dream...Dont shake your head. What? Nothing to do wuttt!


I had a dream just now.

I saw a girl wearing a red dress and high heels. She's standing on the highway, suddenly she run. She's running through the deep forest. She's sprinting through the trees. She doesn't know where to go. She's running to become free, never turn back. The girl's keep running... 

That girl is me...

I always wonder what are dreams made of. Is it just a normal series of mental images and emotions occurring during we sleep? Is it just the mind imaginary things or there is actually a story behind the dream? I don’t really know. Sometimes it seems so real, I see it, I hear it, I smell it, I feel it, and I taste it! (when eat in my dream)


I have many crazy wild fantasy dreams...like how I fight and battle with SunMmHong from my backyard to the Pyramid of Egypt, like how I travel in a heavenly place but end up with winning mahjong to rescue my partners, like how I ski along the school corridors without any snow, like how I was attacked by zombies until a HUGE dog named BABII-dog rescued me from them, like how I accidentally murdered my friend, stopping others to investigate the real story behind but helped her to go to the place she belongs after death. Haha..I m a great dream-maker!


I dreamt that I was dead when I was a kid, around 9 years old... We used to wait for my dad to close the shop then go for dinner together during weekends. My bros were talking to mom on the wooden bench made by my grandpa, while I was cycling in the garden, just as usual. Suddenly there’s a hand from the ground grabbed my leg and pulled me down. I was struggling to get out but I couldn’t. I struggled until I died, with eyes open. I saw mom and bros still talking happily on the bench, nobody notice my death, nobody knows, no one cares. This is my first dream about death.


There was another dream about my death. I was dead and turned into a ghost, not a bad one, but just a new ghost, powerless and invisible to everyone. I don’t know how I was murdered. Again, nobody knows about my death, I need help!! I screamed, but no voice came out from my throat. I make things drop, I broke all the windows and doors, just want to get attention from somebody to help me...but no one can hear me and see me!! When I awake, I cried.

You know what? It’s heartbroken when being ignored by family and friends...so sad!!


Once I had a repeated dream, when I was fifteen. I couldn’t sleep well for few nights because of this. This is the worst and the scariest dream I ever had. We all were in ancient costumes. I was chased by many people behind me, like all the residents. Something was wrong. They were holding knifes, hoes, and fire torches. They were scolding me that I’m an unprosperous person, cursing me to die. I ran so frightened, until I was standing in front of a temple. It was on fire!! I have no way to go anymore. I turned back and looked at the people chasing me behind. I can only see anger from all their faces, I can only hear “YOU MUST DIE, YOU BRING BADLUCK”. I was panic, afraid, and I was despaired and hopeless. I don’t know what happened, it’s not my fault, I was not a “shueh” person. Suddenly, there’s a flashback of memories, I saw pictures and news titles flashing before my eyes, everything was spinning, like thunder striking and pictures keep flashing till I awake from it...Horror!

The same dream repeated on the second night, until I awake, I forced myself to sleep back and trying to continue that dream. I wanted to know what happened. Then on the third night, I dreamt the same dream in my dream. It means I dreamt that I was chased by people and the same things go on. Then I fell unconscious. The unconscious me dreamt that I was chased by people and about the flashing pictures again. Just keep dreaming deeper like never reach the end, till I awake from it... Is this dream trying to warn me or telling me something? Is this about my previous life? I hope it’s not. I don’t want to be “shueh”. Scary or not? I think, maybe mysterious is a better word to describe it.


Then, I always dreamt about a very big modern-designed mansion, with French windows all over the house, spotlights illuminating the swimming pool and equipped with all those high tech luxurious stuffs. It’s like I “visited” this same mansion a few times in my dreams, waiting for a man to come home. Yes, I know he’s my man, but I couldn’t see his face. My dreams always end up with a ........ , without an ending. I wonder will I see this mansion in the real life. Or maybe it’s my future house? And the man is my Mr.Right? haha ;D

Then I must be very rich in the future! Wooohooo~

I dream so much. I dream a lot.
For both the sleeping me and the waken me.
I have always been a dreamer.
The sleeping dreamer can do anything she wants to do, no responsibility, no consequences...but the waken dreamer is never really takes courage to turn her dream into a reality, because she is afraid of failure.


Dreams come true? It’s not an easy thing.