今天我要出去走走

多得末考空档期间过得颓废的日子，有许多多余的时间思考
想过去，想现在，想未来
之前忙碌的日子过得很充实，却忘了生活和自己
现在空闲的日子过得很颓废，好像又失了生活的意义


我想
生活当中的每件事，都有它的意义
我们应该做的是自自然然去生活
不管你觉得它有没有意义
你做了，自然就赋予他意义
尽管是一件小事，也会变得有意义而让自己快乐

 我会努力的让每一天的生活过得有意义，变得有价值

 今天我要出去走走
管它太阳再大把我晒得再黑，也要过得非常有意义！！！
走！

Tattoo

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Do you ever wish to have a tattoo? Do you have one?


I always think, what if I have a tattoo. I even have an idea the image I want and very sure it will never be a name of anybody. But......the idea always end up with Ooo no! it’s painful!


I found some awesome, wonderful tattoo.

All are great!! But I can’t accept the pain for having them all.

I just wish I have a small lower back tattoo or maybe a hip tattoo.
Tattoos on lower back and hip are just too sexy for girls and women!!

But I think it must be super super crazily painful to receive tattoo on hip as not much fat under the skin of that area. So, forget it.

Maybe, the best part is to have a super small star tattoo on my face to cover my mole. Hahahaha~

 

What does this tattoo mean to me? Nothing, just for fun.

Hey Kota Kinabalu, SABAH!! @ Exploring

This is the second day and also the last day in Kota Kinabalu.


Sky bright like 8 at 6 in the morning. And I have mangoes as breakfast. Weird.

Went UMS and simply drive without directions. Haha, I don’t know what can I say. I feel so...speechless...lost till don’t know where. Hahahaha~


Then, we went to get souvenirs.

I was so excited to see all these seafood products, but I got no money to buy. But they asked me what’s that and can it be eaten?! Uhm...okay. They don’t eat these foods. That’s the difference in cultures between ethnic.

Many monkey tee shirts available. Guess which one I bought.

Hints: Very cute cartoon and black in color.

The only thing I want is pearl! No matter how much it is, I must bring back something made with pearl!!

So, I get myself one set of sea water pearl necklace, bracelet and earrings.
I believe they are real. I don't care!!!




Before we leave, we went to nearest beach from the airport, which is Tanjung Aru Beach.

The beach is very very very calm but erm a little dirty. I love it!!

I wish I could wind-sail like them too.

See the people walk till so into the sea already but the water just at waist level. Whoa! Why UMT beach is not like this?!! =(

Ok, time flies and it’s time to back to Peninsular.

That’s all for my short journey in Kota Kinabalu. Real short.
Overall, it’s quite a happy trip as I feel pampered by my new friends. They treat me very nice, more than I expected.


Well, I think I want to revisit Sabah again, for a longer period. I wanna go to Sandakan, Sepilok, and many more districts. Who wants to follow?!

Songs for share @ Stupid Liar, BigBang

My favourite song in this moment...

LIAR LIAR..stupid..LIAR LIAR LIAR BLAAAH~

Hey Kota Kinabalu, SABAH!! @ MASUM Dinner

As I mentioned, this is a mission trip.

I’m there for Majlis Anugerah Sukan MASUM 2010.


In case you don’t know, MASUM is Majlis Sukan University Malaysia. So, this is the awards-giving night for all the great athletes from local government universities. Then generally national athletes won the big prizes like the best female athlete of the year, Chai Fong Ying in Wushu is from UPM and the best male athlete of the year, Bryan Nickson in Dive category is from UM. They represent our country to compete with others, win gold medals and make Malaysian proud. They deserve it.

But why am I here? Hahahaha, I also don’t know.

Oh, I am the supporter larr! I’m here to cheer and clap hand as UMT got the best female athlete in kayak and best male athlete in squash =P I am here to eat as well .. kakakaka!~

Menu of the night. The sweet corn soup with shredded chicken and crab meat is super delicious. All the dishes are delicious. I ate a lot until super full and fell asleep before the ceremony end. Haha! So, not much photos I took coz I was sleeeeepiiiiingggg. Zzzzzzz

Mission: Eat, cheer, laugh.

Status: Mission accomplished!

空壳子

写了一篇文，一直存在文件夹里
原来已经一年了

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人们习惯乞讨施舍的同情而让自己好过
最终，还是要靠自己站起来的
我不屑同情
悲伤对我不算什么了不起的事
所以我不随便诉说真正的悲伤
我庆幸每一次我都掩饰得很好，最后好好地站起来了


我觉得自己是一个空壳子
内在空虚，外在冷漠，综合成孤僻，累积成造作
我不想听见，不想看见，不想说话，不想思考
身处在无常的炼狱中，我的勇气开始武装自己，掩饰自己敏感的心灵，继续活下去


生命这么冗长也这么仓促
总是等到在人烟里消失了
才突然能够清晰地想起那些过去
才愿意承认和珍惜他的价值
感叹


看到相似的画面，谈起类似的话题，听到熟悉的音乐，甚至在临睡前的夜深人静
被埋葬的悲伤的情绪一旦被挖掘和碰触
被冰冻的冷漠的眼泪还是会融解而热泪盈眶


有两种眼泪
一种是心碎，一种是幸福


心碎的泪会麻痹，眼泪已经掉下了却没有感觉
直到感受到脸颊的潮湿温热，才知道原来很痛
这种泪，很讽刺，很遗憾


幸福的泪会感动，眼泪已经涌出来，嘴角却是上扬的
你会希望感动的泪继续流，一直感觉幸福
这种泪，很温暖，很珍贵


我默默地流下参杂着心碎和幸福的泪水
擦拭泪水以后，以微笑回应讽刺的怜悯
别再为他流泪了，让他去吧
该放下的，就放下吧

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photo taken by Zhang HuiLyn @ 2010

有时候我会忽然回想起那一张印象深刻的脸
有时候我也会梦见那一张脸
这是怀念吧
总是在那个时候，才发现自己快忘了那一张脸的模样

人去了，楼也空了
继续活着的，用力的呼吸吧

Hey Kota Kinabalu, SABAH!! @ Food

Let’s back to the day after I sent a message to the Almighty Universe.


A staff from sports unit I knew during my past squash coaching clinic gave me a call and asked me to join him to Sabah for a dinner in the weekend.


Whoa!! LOA LOA LOA!!


So I said yes and finished all the assignments before I leave. First time being so motivated to arrange jobs and complete all the works before the others start doing theirs. Hahaha! I even brought notes to study for test.

 Studying in the waiting hall as return flight was delayed. I studied in the plane too. Rajin-sekali!

This is a really special trip.


First, travel with strangers. I don’t know my travel mates except for the squash boy. But we are not friends, just know the face but never say hi. And I actually not really close with the staff. I wonder why he chose me.


Second, I am the only Chinese among 6 of us. Very distinctive~


Third, sport-hater like me is going for a national level sport event. Huh...RIDICULOUS but TRUE!

We checked-in the sports hostel. Lame to the max. Well, I keep reminding myself no complain to foc stuffs. Accept it!!


We have 3 hours for free activities. So we got a van and go explore the city in this short time.

The first place we went is the market and that’s the place we went the most =P


I really love the food.


Left: The Sabah biscuits and snacks, kuih cincin and ball shaped crackers keropok amplang. Crispy gila!!

Right: This is the steamed glutinous sweet potato. Texture like dodol durian but it tastes sour! Guess it’s fermented.

 

This is the closer look of kuih cincin and the ball crackers

The prawns and squids......so large!! See the lobster!!!

I saw this ABC with macaroni. Wow...great combination! Never thought can eat ABC together with macaroni.

Okay, time to back and prepare for the dinner.


-to be continued-

Hey Kota Kinabalu, SABAH!!

Hey! I’m back from a trip.........to SABAH!!!


Yes. I secretly travelled to Kota Kinabalu last weekend, to run away from the hectic life.


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Bluff you one larrr.
I’m not that rich and have the gut to go wild in that way by now.
It was a short mission trip.


I didn’t expect I will go travel in this critical moment when everyone is rushing report, proposal writing, and doing last minutes study for tests. All this came in a sudden.


I only informed several people about this, to cover me for absence and to check my work if any problems occur. I don’t dare to tell the others. I’m sure I will ‘kena shoot teruk-teruk sampai mati macam bee-hive biscuits’ if I announce my trip earlier.


5 years ago, I’ve been to Sabah for almost a week to visit my brother when he was studying at there. That week was awesome, very memorable!!!

I think UMS is the best building to represent Sabah. 

Above is 5 years ago and below is current.

Now I visit this place again. Feel so excited because I heard that Kota Kinabalu has changed a lot into a more advanced city now, I want to see it by own.

As this is a mission trip, I actually didn’t go anywhere as didn’t have much time. Just simply wandering the Kota Kinabalu city.

Sound bored right?

No complain, when all the expenses are fully sponsored!~ Yoohoooo!!! *jump and yeah*

WHOA!!! The Universe did listen to me!


He gives me everything free when my cash flow is seriously run low.
He gives me a place to have a break, relax and refresh my mind.
He gives me 3 days to paint my boring life as much as I could.


All I need to do is pack-n-go-n-eat-n-enjoy.
That’s my mission. And the mission is very well accomplished!!!


I am so lucky. Super lucky. Damn lucky. F**king lucky.


-To be continued-

Thank you, Universe!

I wrote this last few days, when I was so depressed by all the bad stuffs I attracted unconsciously.


Suddenly so much work to do.
Assignments due soon but works are not done yet.
I have to complete many reports.
I have to study for coming tests and finals.
I have to make clear of my project and complete the proposal.


I am tired, both physically and mentally.
I sleep, but I do not sleep well.
I have time to rest, but it’s restless.
I am always craving for food and the sad case is I am gaining weight back.
I am poor, not much cash left in my account to make me happier.


I wish I have the time to go out for a short walk and relax.
I need a break to experience something new and refresh my mind.
I want to live life, not boredom, but an exciting life.


Hello World, can you hear me?
Can you make miracles happen?


I don’t believe in Law of Attraction, not until the day I read ‘The Key’.
It is almost the same as ‘The Secret’ to encourage us to make Law of Attraction come alive.

So I practice LOA in attracting food to fulfill my craving.

Well, after a few successful stories (nasi dagang, cheese baked rice and KFC), I need to say ‘I Love You’ to LOA.

So I sent out a wish. I asked the universe for help, hoping the universe to receive it.

Guess what?

The UNIVERSE is there to listen and fulfill my requests!!

What more can I say?



Thank you, Law of Attraction. Thank you, Universe. Thank you, Belief!

PS: Will tell you how the almighty universe answered my requests in the next post. Bye!